Swedish Bhairavi Says: ”Shadows of the Heart & Manipura”
In the beginning, long ago, when I was observed and “scanned”, there where many mystical things that happened, beyond my simple Swedish mind and heart. Amongst many things I was told was; “You, Tara Ji, you can do anything in the world, anything you want…and anything means anything”.
It was said with sincerity, love, as well as deep knowledge, power and faith in the capacity of grace of Siddha Gurus. It was a sankalp as well as a promise, as well as a teaching moment, as well as a test and measure of my state and faith.
What will she do if she knows she can do anything? Will she believe it? Will she allow herself to be that full? Will she dare to open her heart to infinite possibilities?
Well, I heard the words and sure, I did feel, but my mind and being was not “Ghambeer” enough, deep enough, sincere enough to understand that sentence of faith and promise with rightful depth. Those sentences have now traversed time, place and circumstance, to get to deeper meanings and layers.
I cannot express the magnitude of difference it makes if one has faith in oneself, belief in oneself, has self worth, self esteem, self love. If a person has an Anahata heart, a heart that is “Ana-hata”, “un-struck”….it is clear, vast and transparent, it has thus the capacity to hold and encapsulate everything, there is no shadow in the heart space.
So called shadows in the heart space, for lack of better word right now, is an occupation of space that could have been used to let Anahata chakra flow better. A shadow can be an old memory, a belief, a wound or a vibration that lingered longer than it needed to.
That’s pretty rough to hear perhaps…right..? I feel it, when I write it. I’ve seen worlds perish due to these shadows.
The heart space is occupied by something that is stale. Something of the past. It’s occupied by tendencies and beliefs and vibration that is opposite of what the 12 petals are trying to guide us through.
When the vessel is leaking , no matter how many times you fill it to the brim, it will still become more or less empty.
We have options. Every day.
We have tools. Siddha Tantra teaches them.
We have experience to learn from. Over and over again we get chances to learn and evolve.
As long as we are in the physical body and alive, we have a chance to improve our karma, and become as efficiently balanced as possible. Powerhouses!
And the heart is indeed the way. If the heart is open many things will be forgiven and even through mistakes there will be the invisible subtle lotus chord of love and connection that will let you carry on, continuing to be “carried” by the grace of Siddha Gurus.
And so to get to the point of love, we might need to take a stop or de-tour to the “me me me-center”, the center of the will power, the center of strength and integrity.
Manipura….
Here we will explore boundaries, here we will explore in independence, in the experience of wins as well as defeats when we are on our own. Having to taste the result of our chosen actions. Here we might get wounded, scarred and experience pain. Here is also the factory of the nuclear power needed to transcend, needed to reach the space of Anahata. Here also.. there is no guarantee that we use our powers for “good” purposes. But even as a powerful loose canon without a heart compass, with time karma will eventually teach us to stand in the fire we created, without burning ourselves or others.
Let’s see what this focus on Manipura will bring forth on our journey in Atma Bhava Mudra.
The Dakini knows what way reaches the most complete self. She is great, creative and raw. Her ways are playful, intricate and enchanting…artful indeed.
That is why she is the Queen and Shakti in Siddha Tantra Arts.
|| Oṃ Ḍāṃ Ḍākinyai Namaḥ ||
With love,
Swedish Bhairavi
